- Born in Harrow Weald, Middlesex, during the 2nd World War.
- My night hells (aka
'night terrors') became fully developed. Up to the age of 6, I had an intensely
tormenting night-time inner world, in which I seemed to be a wolf-like animal. In
that tormented inner world I was pursued by certain types of normally inanimate
object, each of which in its menacing animate form had a special name. Thus violin
cases narrow end up were sproses, and the same with
broad end up were sprouses; room lights that came down
from the ceiling, hissing at me (the source of intense terror) were doots,
and so on. These terrors overlay my true night terrors (better described as night
hells, because actually they include much more than just terror) - a maelstrom of
ultra-Satanistic-type 'horror movies' of unremitting power and intensity. In
between my fleeing the pursuing terrors, I was desperately seeking company and
closeness, which could never be found. An explanation for the whole hellish
complex of experiences can be found on my page Night
Terrors and Hells - Understanding and Clearing Them.
- Natural history interest commenced (started with keeping caterpillars).
- Formal schooling started.
The whole of my formal schooling was something
of an abomination and had little to do with the real needs of individual
people. It brought me pretty well unremitting unhappiness, both directly and
through the great deal of ridicule and bullying that I received; I knew not
one person who was truly on my wavelength. ...I suppose it all did teach me
something pretty important - that there had to be better ways!
I think it must have been in one of the optional weekly 6th-form periods of
extra-curricular talks that sometimes were given by outside speakers that a
woman once came and talked about Buddhism. I didn't remember anything much of
what she said, and neither did I follow this up directly, but it had sown a
seed which marked it as, in an important sense, the most important direct
teaching that I received in all my schooling - even though eventually it was
to turn out to be very much a two-edged sword, pointing both towards a
potential liberation and into horrendous problems, including my own potential
- Abrupt cessation of my night hells. The cessation resulted from my starting to
fantasize at night on Dan Dare in the Eagle comic, which brought about sufficient
grounding of my awareness for my night hells no longer to be able to operate.
- Musical interest fully awoke: a first hearing of Stravinsky's Petrouchka
hit me like a bombshell. I had an acute shyness about people knowing of my having
any musical leanings - to such an extent that I hid my musical interest from
virtually everyone, including family and closest (i.e., least distant) friends
till I'd moved from my parents' home in 1967. (I've a pretty good idea of the
- It was from about 1956 onwards that I began to experience a range of more or
less minor health problems that in 2007 I was able to identify as being aggravated
and in some cases caused by low-level mercury poisoning,
primarily from my school (Harrow Weald County Grammar School). Most of these
health problems have remained with me very long term.
|1957 - 1964
- I went through a phase of keeping (all in my bedroom!) a wide range of animals
as 'pets' - lizards, snakes (including boas and pythons) and various more or less
small mammals; they were mostly exotic species, but included a breeding colony of
tame rats to feed to the snakes.
- A 21st birthday present of a camera prompted me to start doing nature
photography (primarily of insects); this became a decidedly absorbing activity,
and replaced my keeping of animals.
- Moved from my parents' home in Harrow Weald, to Pirbright (Surrey), then in 1969
to Guildford, for a research job at Pirbright, where I took part in a research
project on biting midges.
- Came out into the open about my intense musical interest - though not much so
about the tumult of music composing itself within me - and, as though possessed, I
built up a large record collection of mostly 20th Century 'classical' music, much
of it little known in this country.
- Driven by a deep suffering, I 'came out' in another way: made my homosexuality* known to all and sundry -
not always with exemplary tact!
* Please see note about homosexuality just below
- Resolved not to meet or relate with anyone at all on the basis of their gender
or sexual orientation - a far-reaching decision much more important than the
'coming out'; I no longer classified myself as 'gay' or 'non-gay', having begun to
recognise that my true nature (and other people's) transcended such trivial
details. For this I was criticized by some for being 'unnatural' and even
- Stopped all natural history activity, including photography, to give myself more
mental space to develop in other ways. For the same reason, I withdrew from my
research job and accepted a period of unemployment. Took up Re-evaluation Counselling, a potentially powerful
self-liberation technique based on a structured approach to facilitating emotional
release. This marked commencement of my ongoing active self-healing
/ self-actualization process (though at that time I didn't think of it as
'healing', nor as 'self-actualization', nor as 'self-realization'). It did,
however, prove to be a very slow and inefficient method, with a number of serious
drawbacks and pitfalls, as I recount in the latter link reference. (Would that I
had had Self-Power
Walking and Grounding Point
- Started writing highly original and exploratory poetry,
much of which had a strong visionary character.
- Started self-publishing collections of my poetry, mostly as A4 duplicated
editions, selling copies locally (i.e., in Guildford) and on a very small scale.
This continued till 1977.
- Joined the Surrey University Choir. Would you believe this - that
simple act was probably the bravest thing I've done in this lifetime! The weight
of fear to push through was tremendous, and I was shaking like a demented jelly on
the evening of that momentous first rehearsal (just Bach's Christmas Oratorio),
feeling as though something unspeakably frightful was going to happen to me! I've
kept up regular choral singing ever since, mostly in Exeter University Choral
Society. Fortunately the fear gradually dissipated over the months and years, so
that over the years since I just accepted my many mistakes with peaceful good
humour and enjoyed the whole experience.
- Moved to Exeter to study for a degree at Exeter University.
- Resumed nature photography, this to develop considerably in 1985, covering
primarily insects, plants, lichens and fungi, and wild scenery.
- Started laboriously writing a series of small-scale rather rudimentary music
compositions - mostly initially intended as duets that I could play with a student
friend I'd made in the University Choral Society, though a few were songs for bass
solo for me to sing, one of them being my 'party piece', the Flapping Duck
Song, with which I have caused occasional hilarity over the years. The
first of the compositions, a little flute duet entitled simply Study No.1,
was some 19 years later to become the foundation of the haunting and troubled 2nd
movement of my 6th Symphony, while the second was in 1995 to grow to become my
official Opus 1 - the 1st Symphony.
- First visit to Scottish Highlands, with first experience of solo mountain
walking - something that was to be developed and repeated annually in Scotland and
sometimes in parts of the Alps.
- Graduated - for whatever good that did me.
- Was quietly excluded from the local group of the Re-evaluation Counselling
community because the group felt ill at ease with my presence - I was much more
strongly motivated for total self-liberation than the others locally and felt
increasingly frustrated with their relatively low level of awareness.
- Started doing regular long, usually solo, single-day hikes on Dartmoor and other
wild places, normally hitch-hiking out and back - something that was to develop
and continue to the present day as quite a major feature of my life.
- Closed down the photography. First novels
- Took up the Alexander Technique,
an incredibly powerful tool for self-liberation. Quickly and permanently
incorporated it into every aspect of my lifestyle.
- Broke out into full-scale symphonic
music composition, using a MIDI sequencer program on the computer.
- The greatest and most welcome event of my life! (well, up to that point!)
Unexpectedly crossed the threshold of enlightenment
(so-called 'spiritual' enlightenment', though it actually has nothing to do with 'spirituality') -
suddenly concluding that I'd been on a lifelong spiritual
path* without even knowing it, and was now on a semblance of the Dzogchen
'path' (generally seen as the highest practice in Buddhism, though in truth its
essence is not a specifically Buddhist practice), with an internal 'guide' rather
than external guru and no external rituals.
* Actually this was a distortion of the actual
situation, which was to lead me into very serious problems from late 2003
onwards, for what I'd really been on was a self-actualization or self-realization
path, but from this point in 1997 I'd allowed myself to get diverted into a
so-called spiritual path, which is something actually very different and highly
problematical, as I explain in Exit
'Spirituality' - Enter Clear-Mindedness.
- Made all my literary works available on disk and on my newly created website.
- Produced CD recordings of all my music compositions, copies of them being made
available to others on a very small, non-commercial scale. Started presenting my
music compositions on my website
- Made a very tentative start in spiritual healing by joining a small local group
of mostly Reiki-oriented healers who accepted complete novices.
Yes, and that marked a quite major step towards my
near-nemesis at the 'hands' of the garbage (i.e.
from late 2003 onwards. I explain about the serious problems relating to ALL the
healing traditions, including Reiki, in Am I a Healer?, where I also relate a hazardous,
albeit ultimately educational, situation that arose for me from the
aforementioned healers' group.
- Accelerating inner changes brought about by giving and receiving healing and
gaining understanding from other mystics and healers.
Yes, at that time I thought I was a mystic of
sorts, and that was a major part of my developing problem. The 'understandings'
that I was picking up then were leading me way off-course, away from genuine self-actualization
and towards the forthcoming major assault from the garbage, to which I was unwittingly
progressively opening myself.
Also, a significant part of the 'inner changes' that I and indeed other
'spiritually' inclined people around me thought were so super-duper was
actually the progressive ungrounding
of various aspects of my awareness and actual weakening of my non-physical aspects
('energy system'), and were progressively laying me open for the very serious
and potentially lethal shenanigans that were to burst upon me in a few years'
- Carson Cooman, a
concert pianist, organist and composer, discovered my work (via this website) and
started the no doubt lengthy and tortuous process of promoting my work and
encouraging my further creative efforts. He motivated me to get appropriate
software to start producing scores of my extant works and started encouraging me
to produce organ works which he could perform.
- It became almost routine this year that on my hiking outings, where I would
hitch-hike out to the start and back from the finish of the walk, I discover at
least one person who was a healer without knowing it, so that I had the inspiring
task of telling the person and advising as to next steps...
Well, yes, I was doing the very best I knew how at
that time, but unfortunately I was pointing all those people in a very
problematical direction, as became very clear from what soon happened to me.
Since my getting a proper understanding - i.e., from mid-2007 onwards - I
dropped putting emphasis on the 'healer' aspect when talking with such people,
and instead increasingly pointed to their genuine self-actualization
potential and ability instead, indeed warning about the garbage involvement in all the healing
- Gained certification as a so-called Reiki 'Master' (Oh well, at least I suppose
it may look 'cool' for me to scoff now at my having what many would still regard
as a desired / cherished status symbol!).
I now understand my Reiki involvement to have been
distinctly problematical, as explained in My
Own Self-Actualization 'Path'. The calling of anyone a Reiki Master
- especially after just three workshops and maybe a bit of practice, without
regard even to one's suitability to teach healing or Reiki at all - is
laughable, apart from the great harm that has come to many people as a result of
this. As I now well understand, my certification as a 'Reiki Master' marked a
further step in my unwitting increasing involvement with and openness to the garbage (i.e.
which latter was shortly to strenuously seek to take me over, either to make me
one of its puppet teachers or to destroy me.
- Produced three music compositions, all with highly unorthodox instrumentation.
- The French publisher Musik
Fabrik started publishing my works. The proprietor - the virtuoso
saxophonist Paul Wehage - commissioned from me a work for saxophone, and what
emerged was The
Seen and the Unseen, a major and weighty visionary work for two
saxophones and piano, which, Paul assured me, is quite unlike anything previously
been written for the saxophone. Later in the year I completed Nordic
Wilderness Journey, another major visionary work for two saxophones
(this time including a contrabass saxophone) and piano, commissioned by the
saxophone and clarinet virtuoso Jay Easton.
- As I was coming up to 60 years old, this summer I decided to get bolder in my
hitch-hiking for my weekly hikes, and included in my repertoire of walks certain
long and hard coast path routes on the Land's End peninsula and other far-removed
parts of Cornwall, still hitch-hiking to and from the route within a single day
- My first venture into composing music specifically intended as a background or
support to healing work - Ascending.
Of course, as it turned out, that intention of mine
was misguided, and more recently I got recommending people normally not to use
music at all when doing any healing work, and I also considerably amended my
programme notes for that music work, cautioning the listener to ignore any
apparent spiritual associations of parts of it and to listen to it in grounding
rather than ungrounding ways.
- In October, I started channelling from
what I took to be my inner guidance, thus innocently 'dropping myself deep in the
brown stuff' - for I had fallen into a trap that had been set up for me by the garbage, then having massive
disruption and confusions from it, which caused me a lot of trouble.
- Reduced the length of my hikes, supposedly to allow for more enjoyment of my
surroundings and human interaction - though in retrospect I understand that my
'guidance' to make that change had come from the garbage
in order to help weaken me to its attacks.
- Was valiantly and doggedly continuing with my attempted self-healing process in
the face of massive interferences and attacks from the garbage, which took me through periods of severe
and near-hellish ordeals associated with my channelling, these in January to April
and then October and again in December (in the latter two cases resulting in my hospitalization).
As I came to understand much more recently, the garbage appeared to be
running a multi-prong campaign to try to disable me in some way as a potential
threat to it and its noxious agenda - as I explain in The 'Dark force' ('Astral Entities') - My Own Tough
Experiences. There were clear signs of attempts by various means
(a) to take me over and make me into a garbage
puppet like the vast majority of prominent 'spiritual teachers' and healers /
'lightworkers', or (b) to wreck me, making me an intractable 'psychiatric case',
or (c) to destroy me completely - i.e., to bring about my immediate or at least
very premature death.
I describe my self-healing process then as 'attempted', because really the
methods I was using at that time, although widely recognised as supposedly
really good, were actually relatively ineffective for major issues. Indeed, as
I subsequently came to recognise, the garbage,
posing as my inner 'guidance', had been systematically motivating me to stick
with inefficient, time-consuming and often wearying methods and to keep clear
of any efficient, 'fast-track' methods that I came to hear about.
- I experienced further crises caused by the garbage's
severe attacks on me, but these became progressively less frequent and severe
after the (at times) quite desperate-feeling winter and spring. In late August I
finally put an embargo on accepting any communications at all from non-physical
sources, to remain in force until the 'astral beings'
are finally cleared from my energy system* (though actually it wasn't
that long before I ill-advisedly resumed some degree of acceptance of 'guidance',
supposedly from my own higher consciousness, which of course was really 'more of
the same', i.e., the garbage
seeking to lead me astray in all sorts of ways).
* This was actually a confused and distorted
understanding, which had arisen from misinformation that the garbage was giving me while it was posing as
'higher guidance'. As I now understand, the garbage
is not true beings at all, and such presences cannot be cleared out in the way
that I thought at that time (and healers / 'lightworkers'
almost universally - but mistakenly - believe to be possible).
More about the true nature of the garbage
True Nature of 'The Dark Force' and its Interference and Attacks.
- Two short stays in the Findhorn
community - a real eye-opener! For a time I was considering whether to relocate
there, but in 2007 I came to the realization that, despite all its wonderful
strong points, that community, and its members individually, are to varying
degrees being led by the garbage,
just as ALL 'spiritual' communities and movements are*.
Therefore it would not be healthy for me to associate myself with that or indeed
any similar community in any way, let alone actually stay there again.
* For more about this issue, please see Exit
'Spirituality' - Enter Clear-Mindedness.
- In March I took up the exceptionally powerful yet simple inquiry method for
clearing emotional issues called The
Work, which appeared to have rendered redundant all my previous
emotional healing methods. It brought about what seemed at the time to be
spectacular inner changes for me.
At least the changes seemed spectacular compared
with the methods I'd been using before, but that was nothing at all compared
with the much more 'spectacular' results that my more recent methodology (post
mid-May 2007, and especially from 2008 with my beginnings of developing the
Clarity-Sphere) has been bringing me.
- I still had interference and attacks from the garbage,
which caused continuing channelling problems and brought about crises through
their attacks, requiring a brief hospitalization
in September and again in October. See One
Right Weirdo Hike - What Do You Make of This?, which relates to what
led up to that September hospitalization.
- What I was very soon to think was my final long hike for this lifetime was a
very strenuous and hard-going 21-miler (on the coast path from Mousehole to Cape
Cornwall) on 23rd September, leading on to an arthritic flare-up of my right knee,
which subsequently remained somewhat troublesome. I had to limit myself to
occasional short local strolls throughout the winter.
Actually it turned out that the arthritis was NOT
due to any 'overdoing' of my hiking. All my indications are that that specific
outbreak of the affliction had been caused by a serious weakening of particular
parts of my 'energy system'
that had been caused by a massive potentially lethal psychic attack that had
been launched on me during the course of my 'right weirdo hike' (see the link
above). Fortunately this was to turn out to be fully healable by the very
methods that I was having to take up anyway to get myself progressively clear of
the garbage's ongoing
interference and attacks.
- In late December, I got 'assistance' from DZ, a 'lightworker',
in starting to attempt to clear myself of interfering non-physical 'entities' and
other 'external energetic interferences' (EEIs), as he called them - i.e., really
- Continued my attempts at clearance of 'entities' and other interferences, using
DZ's method, and with his direct 'assistance' at times. However, although I made
many gains through this process, it became apparent that the 'entities' (i.e., garbage interference and
attacks) issue was still very much with me. I subsequently came to realize that
both he and I were being extensively deceived at that time by the garbage, and no entities of note were actually
being removed despite 'visuals' being presented to both of us showing such removal
actually happening. Indeed, I also subsequently established that that DZ had,
presumably unawarely, put some harmful energy configurations in my own
non-physical aspects. More about all this in My
Own Self-Actualization 'Path' - Part 2.
- I took up the EFT to use
as well as The Work
in my emotional clearance process.
- Very slow improvement of my arthritic knee, allowing short local strolls to lead
on to a return of the hiking outings, but naturally I remained limited to
relatively short walking routes (5-8 miles - a maximum total of about 10 miles
including road walking in the hitch-hikes out and back).
- Following a prompt from the writings of Steve Gamble, in April I came to
recognise all channelled scenarios and 'higher' or 'spiritual' realities as being
at least in part the work of the garbage
and thus something to completely avoid. I also distanced myself from all supposed
past life information about myself or indeed anyone else. Not only was I not
channelling any more, but I got progressively removing channelled information from
& Clear-Mindedness site, so that it could focus much more
effectively on true self-realization without troublesome if alluring sidetracks.
This is explained more in Better
Without Channelling and Exit
'Spirituality' - Enter Clear-Mindedness.
- In May I attended a particular workshop from which I gained new life improvement
methods that, in my hands, at once proved to be the basis of a full and relatively
comprehensive self-actualization methodology that I then started developing. These
included a set of powerfully life-enhancing yogic practices, most of them very
energetic, the central one being the Returning
Life Sequence*, which, when used daily, is claimed to
actually progressively reverse most of what is generally taken to be the ageing
process of one's energy system. Whether or not that actually categorical claim is
really 100% accurate (which somehow I very much doubt!), I had definitely
consistent ongoing very positive change that appeared to be associated with my
I also gained from that workshop a procedure called energy testing,
a simple means of testing the effects on me of environmental 'energies' (i.e.,
non-physical influences), relationships and actions of mine, both current and
prospective (this done without channelling - very important!), which I was to extend to make it much more
flexible and versatile when used in the right hands.
I experienced immediate great benefits from these life tools, rapidly becoming
more powerful against the garbage's
attempts still to unseat me and disrupt my life and turn me away from true
self-actualization methods - and now I had means to progressively improve my
living environment and every detail of my daily life to make it more harmonious
with and supportive to my ultimate best interests - 'living with intent' in the
best sense imaginable.
* More about this in Some Potent Self-Actualization / Healing Practices.
As you will see there, I have more recently replaced that with what I call Clarity-Sphere
- Since I took up the aforementioned practices and was thus at last embarking on a
really effective self-actualization process the recovery of my right knee
accelerated, allowing increasingly long and hard hikes. On 11th August, just two
days before my reaching the age of 65 and starting to receive the State pension, I
walked the strenuous 21-mile coast path route from Exmouth to Beer (actually with
a further 2 miles of road walking as part of the outward hitch-hike). Those
practices mentioned above did seem to be working, and that knee was rapidly
becoming no longer a limitation for me.
- Also as a result of the aforementioned practices plus the energy testing, I
surprised myself by buying a new and relatively high grade digital camera, and
started nature photography on my hikes once more, setting up a new website - Broad Horizon Photos
- for selling the pick of the photos that I take.
- Subsequently I was experiencing a pronounced and accelerating increase in a
stable and unwavering deep happiness and 'inner smile', as the garbage interferences were progressively
diminished by the recently acquired self-actualization*
* It is best that I explain here that, as being
presented at the workshop, the practices were simply 'life improvement' methods,
but because my intent was deeper and broader based, in my hands the methods were
effectively proper self-actualization
|2008 and 2009
- Further major positive change in my life and overall life experience, despite
and indeed partly because of what turned out in the short term to be an apparent
red herring! I'm referring to my ambitious-sounding Clarity-Sphere project, which
involved using spheres of suitable stone types supposedly containing special
programming that was intended to facilitate one's healing and self-realization
process very powerfully indeed. The only catch turned out eventually to be that
there had been a flaw in my energy testing that didn't come to light till late
December 2009, which had enabled a whole 'ideal' fantasy to be progressively built
up about use of these stone spheres on the basis of that programming, which latter
actually was fictitious and had never happened! As soon as I eventually found that
the spheres really had no programming, I had no alternative to publicly drop the
Clarity-Sphere project and any project that depended on the actually imaginary
However, it was very evident that the Clarity-Sphere project did benefit me in
many ways, helping my healing / self-actualization process and the progressive
reduction of garbage
interferences and attacks. This was because I put much store in using various
healing and clearance methods with my working 'Clarity-Sphere', and those
methods were all valid and effective in their own
right as healing and self-actualization methods*, and the aventurine
sphere that I was using worked excellently for the purpose as 'surrogate' and
also resonator and focus of one's healing and positive intents. It is just that
there was no actual programming that would have still further enhanced those
methods and added many additional major benefits.
* I don't mean this to sound like a sort of lame
apology for what I was doing, for the results of the methods were very much at
the top end of what one would get from healing methods generally, AND went
beyond them in being free from distortions from troublesome external influences,
through working consistently from my own deepest aspects rather than the usual
sort of things like 'calling in the Light' or working with supposed guides or
angels, which actually all cause major problems and were part of what had
dropped me into such big trouble in 2003. Various other people who were using
'Clarity-Spheres' reported the same sorts of beneficial effects that I appeared
to be getting from mine.
Indeed, at the beginning of 2010 I was to produce a new web page to replace
the Clarity-Sphere one, entitled Stone Spheres as Healing and Self-Actualization Aids,
which shows how you can use polished spheres of suitable stone type as very
effective healing aids.
In any case, really the Clarity-Sphere project had not at all been discarded,
but it had simply been 'put on the back burner' to await my future
experimentations with polished stone spheres to see if there were in fact some
way that I could at least eventually start programming them with some sort of
- One major feature of 2009 was my healing of a 3rd Degree tear ('rupture') of my
right quadriceps muscle (the big one on the front of the thigh) to the extent that
several months later I was walking hikes of full length and strenuousness again,
with no pain or noticeable sense of weakness in that leg - though I was to remain
with slightly reduced combined leg power so that the hardest walks took a little
- So, I started 2010 with a lot of the same methods
as in 2009, but a more rigorous approach to inner inquiry and energy testing, and
no further distracting illusions about possibilities that are effectively
nonexistent, and indeed having greater assistance through expanded use of the Energy Egg
family of 'energy protection' / healing devices, and indeed of a very nice polished
This approach kept things more down to earth and helped to avoid any further time
(and money!) wasting, and would undoubtedly further speed my clearance of the
remaining interferences from troublesome influences.
- Life rapidly becoming still more 'free' and joyful in nature, with the garbage shenanigans very much sidelined - and I
developed very quick and simple procedures to use on the rare occasions when I did
notice a hint of an attack. Amazing that people read about all this on my
Self-Realization site and then still seek to tell me and others that I'm writing a
lot of rubbish and I ought to be using their own favourite belief system, with all
the ineffective and garbage
connecting methods based on it.
- In late 2010 I started on a new tack with experimental attempts to progressively
build up some sort of beneficial programming in my working marble sphere, having
chosen a larger and thus potentially more powerful one to use for the purpose.
This did appear to be starting to 'get somewhere'.
- My prototype new-concept Clarity-Sphere
(C-S) came increasingly into focus during the first months of this year, and it
was not long before I was able to discontinue completely my use of the Energy Egg
'family' of devices, provisionally declaring them redundant, and use my C-S setup
as my sole 'physical' aid, so simplifying things considerably. I was also able to
reduce the number of practices that I was using each day to a more workable
minimum and so live my life in a somewhat better balanced manner.
interference and attacks still were coming my way, BUT it was at a still lower
level than last year, with noticeable events still progressively more infrequent.
I was able to nip any attempt of an attack in the bud with very simple and quick
Indeed, on one late evening in April I gave my new procedures for dissolving
attacks a very challenging test, for I deliberately did something that I knew
would precipitate a massive garbage
attack, and then, when that attack was coming on really hellishly and it was
superficially feeling that I'd 'done it' and was now being taken over and
destroyed, I simply set to with the two main procedures for dissolving attacks,
and had cleared that attack within an hour.
- If the world came to an end this year, or 'ascended' into some supposed 'higher
order' or the 'fifth dimension' or whatever, as various cults and factions were
claiming would happen, I personally have not been aware of this, and indeed was grounded enough not
particularly to be expecting any such thing to be happening at this time!
For me, the year overall was plagued by a problem with pain in my left foot, and I
devote a whole page on this site to it: My Little Brush with Plantar Fasciitis. As you would
read there, except for a time in the spring, the pain was actually NOT plantar
fasciitis at all but a further attempt by the disgusting garbage to disrupt and indeed destroy my life,
this time by hijacking minor discomforts caused by slight strains in my left leg,
and grossly amplifying and distorting them and projecting them into various parts
of my left foot or/and ankle to mimic not only plantar fasciitis but also various
other painful strain conditions, the pain getting fairly severe at times and
making me afraid even to go out shopping.
It was not until late August that I twigged as to what was really happening, but
at least then, with an immense sigh of relief I was able to start the process of
turning the situation around and getting back into hiking again. It proved much
slower than I had expected to get clear of the issue, which came and went a lot
and was still not fully cleared by the end of the year. At least over those last
few months of the year the intrusions of that phantom pain became progressively
less, and overall the pain still becomes less and less of an issue - also the
ankle and foot feeling stronger and more secure again.
- In June I commenced a new project - Broad Horizon Natural Soundscapes. However
after making my first few recordings then (near Crackington Haven and Boscastle,
Cornwall), the foot pain issue got so disruptive that the project was put on hold
and it was not till into the autumn that I progressively got back into going out
on hikes and getting various wonderful sea recordings in the process. Since then,
certain sea recordings that I have obtained are among the most thrilling and
beautiful natural soundscape recordings that I have ever heard.
- In November I commenced a sub-project within Broad Horizon Natural
Soundscapes - Wind Chimes in the Wild - Symphonies of Wind Chimes
and Nature, goaded into that project by discovering that
all the commercial wind chimes recordings that I could locate were really an
affront and insult to the buyer, because they all had one or more unannounced
faked components that greatly limited their ability to be a healthy or really
satisfying or enjoyable experience. There is much more to really good wind chimes
recordings than just a monotonous soporific tinkling (i.e., however sweet
sounding), and my own vibrant and engaging recordings demonstrate just how true
- The remains of last year's foot pain issue faded away during the first two
months, enabling me to get on with my hiking outings once more. Also, that meant
that I could get on with making the natural soundscape and Wind Chimes in the
Wild recordings that I wanted to - and it proved to be a busy year for me
in that respect. Subjects of long recordings (generally 30 to occasionally more
than 75 minutes) included spectacular sea sounds along the more rugged Cornish
cliffs (including booming caves and quite violently active blowholes), Dartmoor
streams, bird sounds, including skylarks on remotest Dartmoor and choughs at
cliffs near Land's End), more wind chimes in the Teign Gorge but also smaller wind
chimes on top of various wild and rugged Cornish sea cliffs - and so on.
- In April I started setting up commercial
CDs of my recordings at CreateSpace. By the end of the year I had submitted
over 100 CDs, each using my own artwork for the CD cases, notably using photos
that I took of the respective recording situations / set-ups. You can listen to
excerpts of the CD tracks in my e-Store:
- The only really significant way that the garbage
was able to mar my general life experience this year was through causing excess
tension in certain neck muscles and then greatly amplifying the slight discomforts
thus produced, to make my neck very painful for moving my head, with quite
troublesome spasming-type pains (yes, that was despite my ongoing use of the
Alexander Technique, which had saved me from significant neck pain for many
years!). However, I got working on that, and even at worst, the garbage did not succeed in getting me to abandon
outings and other beneficial activities. There are signs that the situation is
improving 'under the bonnet', so that a slow fade-out of the pains and stiffness
will shortly become noticeable - but of course only time will tell...
- Set up all my recordings of MIDI realizations of my music compositions as
commercial CDs, using Createspace. See my Music
- For the first time I tried having a few all-night sessions for recording very
full dawn choruses and whatever else that whole period 'out on the tiles' might
get me, taking advantage of the short nights in mid- to late June. That was an
especial challenge for me as I had had an apparently lifelong dread of being on my
own out in the wilds in the dark - a fear that I reckoned should have been cleared
by then through use of my self-actualization methods. These proved to be real peak
experiences, with not a smidgeon of fear and much celebratory joy at experiencing
Nature as I'd not done before. Not only did I get very beautiful long dawn chorus
recordings, but also got my introduction (darkest hours only) to the
breathtakingly bizarre 'demonic' sound of Manx shearwaters, managing to get
excellent long recordings with the shearwaters coming in and out of focus through
the sea sound.
- My neck definitely loosening up, albeit at much less than snail pace. Still a
bit painful and awkward turning my head around, but nothing like it was over the
previous two years. Late in the year the rate of improvement seemed to be
- Published all my literary works, using Createspace, as quality paperback books
and also as Kindle e-books. I revisited my unfinished 6th novel and completed it
as a short novel - and actually in its new, complete form it is a particular
favourite of mine. Its title: Forbidden Flood Warning (The Bishop's
Little Wet Dream). Please see my Bookstore.
- In June again I fitted in a few all-night sessions for recording of natural
soundscapes - again wonderful experiences, the solitude and not camping
all helping to make the experience.
- A week or two before my 73rd birthday I had one of my solo hikes, from Exmouth
to Seaton, with no more difficulty and actually less leg fatigue afterwards than I
used to get on that route decades ago. 23 miles and approaching 1200 metres of
ascent. Must be doing something right!
December I stumbled into a rather unlikely experimental project of a boldness that
would mark me out in the eyes of 'sheep' as plain
insane! I blush to mention it - after all, what would the neighbours think! - Anyway, for what it is
worth, the project is described in 'The
Astral' About to be Closed Down?. Just
please, please, read it carefully
enough to succeed in reading what I am actually saying there - not
what you think I am saying!
Now, if by any chance that one really did work out, it really would be one
absolutely unprecedented great pinnacle of a life achievement!